my prerogative

This morning I wrote down two lists of what I wish from my life.The first one had the ultimate things I require from my life and I was surprised to know that there was nothing radical that I wanted from it.Just simple things .Few of them were beyond my control ,the rest I would have anyways got.

The 2nd list that I made was of smaller things,which does not fill life on a bigger picture ,but it definitely fills in moments.So writing them made me feel I have things to do and I should stop moaning over the futility of life.
Here they are -

1.I wish to play violin ,making music from the depths of my heart.
2.I wish to be a good orator.
3.I wish to learn waltz.
4.I know how to make choclates (1 kind),I wish to excel at making variety of them.
5.I wish to gain deep knowledge of whatever I am studying.
6.I wish to read and understand each word of my scriptures.
7.I wish to see places.
8.I wish to do a good deed each day,something that makes me feel satisfied at the end of each day.
9.I wish to either see the depth of oceans or watch the earth from space.
10.I wish to play my role once on stage.

I reached my class with my 20 smthng list of things that bug me ,when someone asked my teacher the relevance of making us write such a thing.And what he said struck me and brought the lazy and sleepy innovative thinker in me(which hibernates for 11 odd months ),and pushed aside this philosopher who is associated with anything and everything which is related to ...hm.....inaction (sounds too bad) or lets say akarmanayata(I heard of it in an H.S event I attended last night).He said if you are not able to complete a list of 100 things that bug u then you are a satisfied creature and you in your lifetime will never be able to innovate or design or improve a thing.Now that was a big blow to the innovator in me and guess what.....the list for which I had been crying for days was completed in just 6 min time..!Amazing!
I could actually figure out things that should not have been the way they are...
That's the reason sometimes I feel philosophy carries you away from the arena where the actual action happens.Though I cant stop looking at things and creating my own philosophy ,another thing which has to stop is inaction.
Actually this makes my list 101.Yepiiiiiiiii..

Can you think of 100 things that bug you?
TC

Some random thoughts

For a course I was asked to pen down 100 things that bug me.Though we all have a habit of grumbling about many things in our life,but when I sat down to pen them down my list does not further a stupid number of 20.(I wonder why? Probably most things we grumble about are not worth remembering and hence not worth grumbling)

My friend wants an article on blogging for the college magazine.I hope I'll write something of use not all the crap I keep on writing here.Any suggestions?

I dont know what to write but I am feeling like writing ,so I'll.For past few days I have been feeling the need to actually realize what you need from life.Now that seems a BIG task ,so it is better to divide it in bits ,into many moments and living each to the fullest.Everyone of us has things which might be passions or that which we love to do and things which we do not like to .Pursuing our passions and our responsibilities and creating new areas of interest is what is required to live every moment. Neglecting any 1 of these might leave us remorsing.
A lot of things are happening around.I see many people (which might just involve me)facing different tides of emotions.The only way out is having a positive and confident approach towards life and knowing that when you are around everything else shall come and go except you and that is what is the ultimate truth.Nothing in the whole wide world matters more than understanding oneself and that alone can land you in peace.
There are many more things that I wish I would have written here but I'll preserve it for a time when I am left wid no other idea.

Tc

"What is thine language , O Sea ?"

"Mine is of eternal question ...What is your language ,answer O Great Sky ."

"Mine is of eternal silence."

My wings flap in the space of time.
I turn and see what I have left behind.
Is there nothing that I can call mine.
Memories are all that I can find.

Faces and people flash in my mind.
Feelings and thoughts get rewind.
Who says its easy to pretend;
that you don't care.
Look deep into the eyes;
its all written there.

Sand dunes change places with the wind.
The sea rises and goes behind.
Rocks move on with the river flow.
But times that were left were real slow.
They lingered at the paths that we crossed.
They still wait at the first ray of dawn.
They smell in the pickle that we shared.
They hang at the court hangers in the corners.
They jump from those mango trees.
They ride that cycle in threes.
They skip the rope.
They jump over blocks.
They skip the rope ..jump over blocks.
They skip the hope...jump over clocks.
Skip the hope ...jump over clocks.
I turn around,
And I find time there,
Not ready to skip,
Nor jump,
Nor move.
So time stays and I move on.
Skip jump hop ;hope, clocks, past.

First things first ,a very HAPPY NEW YEAR to all my
blog friends and to everyone around.May you all find this year a storehouse of happiness for you and your family .

The last month was full of new experiences for me .I visited a place near Kullu (in H.P) ,called Village Jari.Now ,to be true, this was my first visit to a hill station and I found it wonderful. The beauty and serenity in the environment was not confined to a place or a tourist spot but splashed everywhere,almost everywhere I could see,even in that forest fire which lit whole of the mountain in the night ;a splendid scene which shall remain with me forever,which made me forget the disaster the fire was creating,or on the bridge which seemed to connect the past to the future,or in the hot springs on one side of the river and cold water on the other bank,or in the frozen waters which made time look on hold..so still,or on the faces and smiles of the kids,or my best buddy there a heater,or in the ignorant beliefs of the local people,or in the deep valleys ,holders of deep mysteries....

By the way I was on an educational trip and yes
enjoyment was coupled with information.It was my first encounter with actual engineering on grounds and it was awesome .The best part was when I went inside the cell where the turbine and its buckets were installed,my God and when I went into that underground tunnel in the mountains which was being blasted ,it was just great.My virtual knowledge got a touch of reality ,hopefully

Perhaps after a few years I might laugh at what I have written but right now these small things are touching my life and I am enjoying every moment.
One more thing, the place that I had visited was a
hydroelectric power project and it made me realize the power that the non conventional resources have which should be properly realized and utilized instead of walking with the crutches of fossil fuels.This will make the future of mankind more secure.

I watched - Twister,Teaching Mrs Tinkle ,Virudhh
,2nd cd (part)of Maine Gandhi ko nahi maara
,Bluffmaster and many more and enjoyed most of them.

Yet again a very happy new year to all of you and keep blogging .

Bye